Been a while...

For the sake of it... I'm going to LINK an image I made... no reason, just because I feel like it.

As for what I've been doing? Living my life for others... probably a part of why I felt like posting the image I made... I did it, for me, because I wanted to, because I felt like it & I don't feel like I'm selfish enough anymore. I'm always going to campus or doing this chore or that thing for whoever & not for me...

Maybe that's a bit of an asinine line of thought, perhaps even pretencious... but I don't care if I'm being pompous, I have the damned right to get out of line from time to time and I haven't cut loose in quite the while. Honestly, I feel an old philosophy of mine nagging at me... when I was a younger man, I felt as if I could transcend the problems and emotions in my life with the use of controlled violence... being bludgeoned in a mosh pit relieves a lot of stress and I think that's something I've nearly forgotten about.

I lead such a sedentary life, even when in leisure... seems like I'm always sitting down and when I'm standing its only for the purpose of moving to a new place to sit down. I truly do appreciate a good place where I can sit in comfort, though, I feel that there's this anxious pit growing inside of me... begging me to do something, anything... we used to just walk the streets when I was younger... for the sake of it, almost always late at night, probably because things seemed a lot cooler when you weren't supposed to do them, but still, I miss roaming and simply going for no other reason than to keep the boredom from setting in.

I'm incredibily bored, seems like I only get the rarest distraction these days & nothing can suffice... I'm trying to vent through artistic mediums again, but a friend and business partner and I have decided to go for a more serious note in the larger endeavor and we've come to the point of seeing profit lines in it, so, more work than play makes me think I'm getting a bit dull.

I don't know if anyone reads this, I doubt it, but just in case... don't worry, I'm not depressed or upset, I'm not going to go postal or anything... just venting my thoughts like I like to do from time to time. I'll probably end up posting here a number of times in the near future just to feel like I'm getting something out, but then again, it might go neglected for months on end like it did prior to this post.